This question came to me as a great question to ask myself whenever I don’t know what to do next. It occurred to me that I spend a lot of time doing things that I really don’t want to do. These are things that I believe are required for my survival. I realized a lot of my time and thoughts were spent in survival mode, so much that it seemed to me that survival was the most important thing in life.
I want to do much more with my life that just surviving. I want to have living and thriving replace surviving. Perhaps I should be grateful for my survival up to this point, that in it self is an accomplishment. They say there is no such thing as an Old Fool.
Two years ago I out lived my mother, which is something I didn’t think was possible, probably because I was having such a hard time surviving.
I also realized survival mode can be a selfish context of life. Spending all of my time worry about me and only me can be a lonely, depressing life, which may lead to unhappiness. Who would I be without others? I really don’t know. What I do know a lot of who I am is based on my interactions with others.
I don’t remember ever say to myself, “When I go up I want to survive”. How did it come to be that this is such a dominate context for my life? Because, that’s what I’m saying to myself over and over again. Eventually it became real for me.
A change is a coming. Moving forward I promise to live my best life and to do whatever I can to support others in living their best life. I’m committed to living a life I love and doing the things I’ve always wanted to do by becoming the man I’ve always wanted to be. That’s what I want to do with my life.
What do you really want to do with your life?
Are you doing it?